Love has no due dates and doesn't know any deadlines.

I was on my way home awhile ago, when I remembered one blog post of an old friend (Joyce Kelmer), about her frustrations on giving deadlines to the one she loves and ending up still loving the guy. I never really fully understood how she felt and how hard it was for her, but now I think I do.

I tried, but I can't. Just like her.

I guess after everything that has happened to me, I've learned how to gamble my heart to uncertainty and never really worry about what may come. What's important is that I'm doing what I want, even if it doesn't go the way I want it to, even if people would go against it. This is my happiness, it hurts and feels good at the same time. LOL.

Love knows no boundaries. Thus, it should not expect anything in return.

Anyway, I do have a song in mind. I always have a song for everything. -.- It's annoying me but I can't help it.

Skyline by Yui.
I can't find a decent video on youtube so i'd give the english translation instead. :)

I think I think a little too much
In my room where I can’t sleep
I want to just run away from this night
My sighs fall onto the window
I want to fly far away
Away from the moonlight
What should I do?
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I just don’t know how to fly...
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I wish someone would teach me
Surely everything’s unfamiliar
Even the TV is full of lies
I keep running for shelter from the rain
I can’t go on like this
I don’t care if I get drenched
I want to fly well I want to fly well
In order to learn to fly...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
You have to get out into the sky, to skyline
I can’t wait for my chance
How many of the same old mornings
Have I counted so far, picturing the skyline
I don’t know how to fly
I don’t even know if I can fly
I want to fly well I want to fly well
But I’ll go
I want to fly well I want to fly well
In order to learn to fly...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
You have to get out into the sky, to skyline

Dreams Change.

Just a day, Just an ordinary day. Just trying to get by.
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy. But he was looking to the sky.
He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand.

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you'd swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.

Singing this song since morning, and 'til now.
Ordinary Day. It was an ordinary day.
Overslept again, missed my first class, and got late on the next. So ordinary.

Today I learned that people change, as well as their dreams.
That includes me.

And now we are happy. :)

The Cure.

*SMILESS!!* What a perfect way to start my first blog post for this year!

January is almost ending. To be honest it didn't quite start the way I wanted it to. I got sick on New Year's eve which lasted for about two weeks (thank God I'm okay nao!), and my emotional landslide of problems didn't make any difference at all. I'm still having this low self-esteem when it comes to my chosen career, and the path that I'm taking.

But: I've decided that I'm not going to waste my time focusing on the negatives and the failures that's happening in my life, and start forgiving myself for everything. I have to get rid of my tardiness and find a deeper purpose to motivate me and live my life productively each day. Easier said than done. Srsly, I need a project. XD

To live as if it's your last.
That'll be my motto. I now pray for consistency.